Greetings and salutations, blog readers!
Some context for this post, I originally wrote this on my phone, with the intent of posting this caption under a picture for an Instagram post. I haven’t posted in a year or so, I think more, and I wanted to do an update for everyone who isn’t following the blog, or who I am friends with on Instagram…And so this is the caption Instagram doesn’t want you to see, because apparently they don’t like long captions. Jerks. I guess they hate reading and don’t like not so micro microblogs.
Without further adieu:
It’s been a while since I posted on IG. This picture represents some of what I have been up to. My life has been undergoing massive changes, and I have been changing with it. I have been working hard, at work, at my personal development, in my personal life, on myself, just lots of hard work all around. I have been doing therapy regularly, I have been growing at my job – the one I got one year ago after the terribly long period of unemployment from the panini of the c-word.
I have read multiple books on personal development, I’ve read even more fiction books, mostly apocalyptic fiction, diving back into the hobby and passion of reading I have always had.
As you can see from the LED sign, I am playing different video games- still playing Left 4 Dead and making those for my YouTube channel, but also playing new things, like Minecraft- which I love and will likely post some videos of as well.
I downloaded Duolingo and started learning Hangeul (Korean). I love so much Korean entertainment and also most of my favorite skin care products are Korean skin care, so why say “oh I’m terrible at learning languages” and never try? Sure I am far from great at it, but I do at least one lesson a day and work at it.
I moved out of my apartment, and out of the city. I now have space, natural lighting, live twenty minutes from the beach, and have a nice little garden.
I have managed to quit smoking cigarettes, something I have struggled with for a long time. I miss them, but I don’t miss how I felt when I smoked. Sure, I had long been cutting back, going days without smoking, but now its months, and I can notice all sorts of differences, including but not limited to how much easier it is to breathe.
Quitting smoking of course, like most people, led to me gaining weight, making me feel like most of the work I had done during the lockdown on my physical fitness had been for nothing, but as I get back to my workout swing, I realize it taught me good habits, ones I could grow on. Where I once thought it impossible to be the girl who gets up at five to work out, I can now proudly say I am doing morning yoga and cardio before six in the morning, and I am making positive strides in my physical health, dropping the “I quit smoking cigarettes” weight, and also building my lungs and body up to be healthier for all these changes.
I have done things I have always wanted to do, including going to RenFest for my birthday, attending Comicpalooza and Anime Matsuri, and plenty of fun little things like that. I have gone to restaurants I have always wanted to try. I have bought stuff for and worked on building an office aesthetic I have always wanted (the books, the plants in what looks like potion jars, crystals and geodes everywhere etc).
I have worked hard on doing all sorts of things that I have always wanted to do.
I even treated myself to VIP tickets to HalLudoween, and booked the flight to St. Louis for this VIP weekend, and secured a really nice hotel room for myself, right next to the venue. I promised myself, deep in the darkness of lockdown that if I managed to get a good job and get myself afloat, I would treat myself to this. And I am! It feels SO GOOD, to not only treat myself, but to honor a promise to myself.
I have learned to put myself first, and while it’s a work in progress, I have realized the most important relationship I have and will ever have is the one I have with myself.
There have been dark times, deep depressive episodes, so many missteps and doubt, but I have done the hard work and not only gotten through it, but came out the other side better, stronger, and happier.
I haven’t posted much on most social media, Twitter getting some tweets here and there, Instagram stories getting some shared posts and the occasional saved story from my Snapchat- I have focused on which socials made me most happy. Snapchat has no real vanity metrics, and no generic commenting/liking for engagement/ people watch your story and either reply to you and start a conversation or they don’t- it feels more real so I have used it more.
My blog, of course, has also seen major changes- as has the entire world around blogging. I now post book reviews, my daily blog content, and of course, recipes. (Yes, I know this is posted on the blog, remember, it was written for Instagram)
I am working on revamping Flake City, with careful guidance – I have learned that while commercial success as a writer isn’t as important to me, there aren’t many apocalyptic fiction writers out there and my story is weirdly unique, and therefore I have an obligation to share the best version of it.
I am also working on a recipe book after much encouragement from friends.
I have learned which friends fill my cup and inspire me.
I have learned which friends encourage me to be my best self.
I have learned so much about myself and the art I make, and how much of it all revolves around the idea of being my best self.
It’s been a while, but it has been well worth the time spent and I am glad I have invested it into myself.
I hope to post more soon, sharing bits of my life as it is now, or at least getting back to my pin of the day posts- I have so many new enamel pins to show you!! (I tend to post #pinoftheday posts to show off my ever growing collection of enamel pins) I may even post some pictures of the coloring I have been doing to relax and restore my creative energies, I found some great artists/books with great pages to color.
Thanks for reading,